Who am I?

I've just started watching 'Samantha Who', a story about a lady who suffers from retrograde amnesia after getting into a car accident. The story begins with her, waking up from an eight day coma. She can't recognize her mother, her father, or any of her friends. She doesn't know who she is. But as the story unfolds, she tries to be a better person because finds out she was one mean b*tch in the past - superficial, materialistic, shallow... all through people's perception of her, and not by what she thinks of herself.

I guess I'm very much like Samantha. I'm trying to find out who I am, and what I am to other people. It's amazing how people's opinions differ so differently from how I put myself to be. I sent out an entire list of 18 questions, breaking it into 2 sections; first asking about who I am to them and secondly, trying to find out more about the people who've chosen to reply me. Many do not know me well, some have written that I seem stuck-up when they first met me, one said I was superficial, another said that I was trying to fit in too much.

It did, but yet it didn't shock me too much. I wasn't surprised that I seemed stuck up. I don't know, maybe I am? Maybe I'm not. People who knew me well thought I was outspoken and opinionated. Every response that I received gave me mixed feelings. I'm wondering about the value of my friendship and existence that I have to everyone I know. If I were to die suddenly, would the people that barely know me, feel sad for me at all? Or would they just feel pity for me because I died young, or because they've lost someone they could've started a better relationship with?

I find it truly difficult to answer myself, "who am I?". Why do I behave the way I behave? It's funny how people say that I'm talkative. It's true that I speak out a lot, but guess what? I feel that I'm always unheard, which gives me the reason why I want to be heard by others. People may hear my voice, but do they listen to it? People tell me I'm outspoken, but I wonder if that's a good or bad thing. Trying to answer all the time may lead people to think that I'm a 'know-it-all', and I'd say that very few Singaporeans are appreciative of that. But I do it because I have a valid reason for doing so - either I'm clearing some misconceptions, or if I'm trying to make my point heard out loud when people aren't hearing at all.

I'm still in the process of analyzing the many replies that I've received, and I truly thank everyone who replied me.